Crazy as a Left Handed Computer

For some years now I was diagnosed with bipolar. but this has changed recently now I do not live with bipolar. Instead, I’m going to have an assessment for BPD and I'm waiting for the outcome result, Whatever happens, the only way is forward so wished me luck. As with Bipolar my diagnosis back then 15 yrs ago with medication, however, know my diagnosis stands in what you call a curve where my illness could swing from one to the other and then time will tell. As it stands now I'm suffering from Anxiety and severe Depression with BPD how do I feel not impressed but not in limbo for waiting results, So too adapt and change to these mental illnesses with inner strength.

Being diagnosed with Borderline personality disorder at the age of fifty years old is apparently rare. But to come to think of it all those years of diagnosis through my childhood straight through to adult and middle age. The life I have led all those years seems quite clear to me. I am absolutely devastated to learn and remember the trauma and abuse that I have endured which has left me with a behaviour pattern which I cannot help usually to protect myself. As a rule, I tend to self-harm and attempt suicide on a number of occasions as a result of stress and what or who triggers this. As with Mental illnesses diagnosis, discrimination go hand in hand, for BPD I feel this is the worst mental illness of all because of the label. To be judged in this way of personality gives the disorder no chance of actually being understood as a person, what seems on the surface doesn't necessarily mean what lies underneath. As for myself forty years later I feel I may get somewhere now with psychiatric services with treatment a two-year waiting list but its worth it in the end.

Welcome to the board. It is worrying to hear that discrimination has been endued by yourself because of a label and the struggle that you've been through over the years, hopefully, things will pick up when services, which I hope you want, engage you in treatment.

Each day is a battle, which comes within, one says unstable emotions, anger, sadness, happiness and feeling suicidal most days which can be controlled by shutting down your feelings and coming numb.

Now over to struggle with people because lack of understanding of this disorder we are seen as troublesome behaviour, then the rows begin, with no skills to protect yourself, we are left vulnerable. And can resort to self harm or attempted suicide. Here comes prejudice where’s there’s no understanding.

Do you feel like our society is getting any better when it comes acceptance and understanding of PD?

A personality disorder is becoming recognised know as a mental illness. Where in the past BPD was recognised by risky behaviours and a lot of discrimination about let’s hope attitudes are changing towards BPD so life will be acceptable within society and people with BPD.

Hello l would like to share my news ,as my personality disorder is treated with medication to but however my psychiatrist believes these meds do not work for this disorder. As l was diagnosed with Bipolor disorder 15 years ago which my meds are for this is good news but very worried as there 4 different meds to be stopped and at heavy doses . I live in hope and optimism .

The struggle between BPD and the rest of the world, on the surface a behaviour problem to others.
And underneath the exterior excruciating pain with adverse reaction to triggers, this comes about because of self-protection over painful emotions and old wounds. This happens and there are struggles with self-harm/suicide with destructive behaviuors EG gambling, drugs and alcohol.
Looking at the positive side there’s also good in BPD as well, EG Being Independent. Creativity/Artistic.And Intelligence.

How the mind works, and I am Johanna.

It’s knowing where to start, erm here we go. A thought from the subconscious of or concerning the part of the mind, of which one is not fully aware but which influences one's actions and feelings.

The brain is a complex organ which controls the function of the body and...

Relationships are difficult when suffering with BPD,as this can be a stormy time with emotions running high and triggers,like a mouse trap snapping,off.
A trigger can be eg as simple as a noise or unkind words exchanged between two people ,self control can disappear then emotions are acted upon,not necessarily deliberately but both parties can be affected mentally or emotionally .
BPD also known as EUPD ,emotionally unstable personality disorder is difficult to control if not aware of it .

Paranoid: .High .
Schizoid: .High .
Schizotypal: .Very High .
Antisocial: .High .
Borderline: .Very High .
Histrionic: .Moderate .
Narcissistic: .High .
Avoidant: .Very High
Dependent: .High
Obsessive-Compulsive: .High .
...yeah. i actually answered truthfully and thats the result.
i alredy have obsessive compulsive disorder but i still found it weird because i dont really show it in my personality.